Why I Stopped Twitch and What I Plan to Do Next

Since I started on Twitch I've been lucky enough to build an amazing community of loyal and supportive followers. Our core message was that we would always be stronger together.

However I've not lived up to this simple fundamental building block of our community and have let my emotions control and dictate how, when and if I would stream or perform.

I feel like an explanation is in order.

So here it is...I suffer from pretty severe depression. Up until now I've keep rather quiet about it. I've mentioned it on stream and in the Discord but never really publicly said anything about it; keep in mind I usually average 15 to 30 people watching on Twitch.

For a long time Twitch was my way of coping with depression until it got to the point that Twitch was depressing me and as such depression is the main reason I stopped streaming on Twitch before I moved in with Yasmin. Now I'm trying to get back on my feet again as a performer as a content creator and most importantly as a person.

I honestly don't know when I will come back to Twitch but I probably will eventually. Until then you can keep up to date with me on most other social networks and I'll be taking YouTube a lot more seriously real soon.

As of today I'm going to be a lot more open about how I'm doing because I've found that keeping this stuff to yourself does not help at all. It only makes it worse.

I'm doing my best to work though all this and I hope you all understand.

I'd like to leave you with two of my favourite quotes.

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
— Ralph Waldo Emerson
Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
— Winston Churchill

-Lootah

Let's show the world what we are really made of... Let's do this!